Two months have past, and my feelings stay the same. Upset, depressed, confuessed, all at the same time. I will admint when I am with friends I do not feel this way, but when I am by myself, he is the only thing which is on my mind. It makes me frusterated that I can't get over him, but then at the same time, my stupid heart is saying no, don't give up on him, just wait it out and something good will come of all this. I hate being the ex which won't get over the relationship. I don't want to be like Wayne's ex girlfriend off of Wayne's World, but keeping all of my feelings inside and not expressing then to anyone just doesn't seem to be working. I feel like I am too young to say that I am in love. That word is just so strong and powerful, I don't want to be misusing it, but it doesn't seem to be misused, when I express my feelings towards him. I just wish that guys would have the cominent to a relationship as I do. I really don't want to genarlize the hole entire male race by saying that for my next two years of my life I shouldn't spend time on boys, because they will never commit to me. That I should want for the two years until I go to university. The only reason why I think that is because I want to wait for him, and save myself for him, but that is wrong. The changes of him liking me are probably farely slim. I need guidness, or something, but the only thing I truly want is him back. Is that wrong of me. I just don't know. The thing which really hurts is that I know that he has moved on. I know who he likes now, and it just kill me to think that he is able to like another girl. I feel that I have done something wrong to have him break up with me. I just can't see how he would just break up with me, when I still like him. I my mind I think "what did I do wrong" "what can I do to get him back" but then I remember that I can't do anything about it. What is done is done. erg. I hate that saying, it is so permant. So I will still carry on life as I always do...I just don't know what to do anymore.

So many people mistake me for my sister. The thing is, we really don't look alike, well see has red hair and i have light brown. There are some other differences too, but I don't know if I like the fact or if I don't. I love my sister and all, and I will admint that I do look up to her, but I just really like being my own person. Anna is a funny girl, so therefore I should be happy that people thing we are alike. Meh, sisters...